Part of moving on is sitting in the pain and sadness but getting out of it sooner rather than later is preferred. Unfortunately thats not how it works. When we feel sadness about loss of any relationship it takes time to mourn whether that be a good one or bad one. I'm not just talking about romantic ones i'm talking about all relationships (i.e. jobs, friends, etc.) Sometimes its easier to get over grieving some situations than others. Other times it can feel like an eternity. As i go through this process myself i realized that there is not just one person for us in this world but there are many. Its a matter of figuring out what we want and how compatible we are. I know part of loving someone is letting them go but its easier said than done. I don't necessarily consider myself to be attractive, rather i think of myself as being somewhere in the lower middle section, particularly in the gay world. So why is it that tonight i was offered to go out with three different people just for coffee and conversation and i rejected all of them? As much as i wanted to go, a part of me was not ready to go and told me to just sit tight in the sadness for now. Cognitively, i'm saying fuck it and go but at the same time i know i need to give myself room to breathe. It's not an easy process but its there and i can't ignore it. So i sit here listening to music that lets me feel my emotions in its entirety.
So here i am waiting to go seek out other fish...........
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